Lyrics Sorry To Myself

For hearing all my doubts so selectively and
For continuing my numbing love endlessly
For helping you and myself: not even considering
For beating myself up and over-functioning
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me
For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable
For my self-love being so embarassingly conditional
for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
for trying to fit a rectangle into a hole
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
for my impatience when I was perfect where I was
Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready,
For expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be
To whom do I owe the first apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me And
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter
I would've naturally loved the former
For ignoring you: my highest voices
For smiling when my strife was all too obvious
For being so disassociated from my body,
for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else