Lyrics Fundamentally Loathsome

I want to wake up in your white, white sun
I want to wake up in your world with no pain
But I'll just suffer in a hope to die someday
While you are numb all of the way

When you hate it you know you can feel but
When you love it you know it's not real
No
And I am resigned to this wicked fucking world
On its way to hell
The living are dead and
I hope to join them too
I know what to do and I di it well...

When you hate it you know you can feel but
When you love it you know it's not real
No

Shoot myself to love you
If I loved myself I'd be shooting you